Hey ladies, so this is gonna be a different sort of post from me. I caught up on the shitshow of her pregnancy announcement (I barely know what to say at this point). Then, I went over to her channel and got sucked into watching "Jakoby 0-24 months"...and I was caught off-guard by my own reaction: I saw a lot of sweet moments, from her talking to him quite affectionately and him cooing back, to him learning to walk from one beaming parent to the other. Here, this link will take you directly to said walking scene so you can see for yourself: https://youtu.be/zZP_H86rrMo?t=3m41s
. Taken in isolation, the dynamic in these 10-second clips is normal and sometimes even positive. I remembered her as way colder, harsher and meaner, and my judgment then was based on the same footage I rewatched today, because we all know she recycles literally the same content for each iteration of her channel. I'm not sure how to account for the difference in my perceptions. Maybe it's that the "positive" moments from when Alesana and Jakoby were babies seem WAY more positive in 2017, now that we know what despicable things were to come.
And, yes, I do feel that her and Chuckie's antics have intensified and worsened considerably throughout the 3 years since she got pregnant with Anberlin. Yes, planning babies as teenagers is reckless, misguided and ultimately sad--sad for the kids, and sad because of the desperation that drives it. Yes, lying, as Tayler has done since the beginning of internet time, is immoral and, in Tayler's case, symptomatic of deep emotional/mental dysfunction. However, keeping her kids under the care of a man who supposedly tried to murder their mother is downright monstrous. Aborting after 12 weeks only to turn around and ttc with the "right" sperm donor is monstrous. It's no exaggeration to say that Tayler has become a monster to me and apparently many others on this board who wanted and pleaded with her to succeed and tried so many times to give her the benefit of the doubt. So, seeing relatively innocuous clips of this woman with her infant (where I do believe she shows him real love in her own way, even if that love was always diluted by selfish impulses) just underlines the fact that she wasn't always a "monster"...no person is born one. Yet here we are.