Debt- I'm not sure what else to say but life happens, the end of 2016, 2017 & 2018 have been rough. To clear things up we have never been on Medicaid. when I was younger & living with my parents they counted all of the families income & we ended up making above threshold. I do have a few bills from back then I am currently paying back (almost paid off) co pays were high & very frequent due to some of Hazzels health issues. When Randy & I got married he went active duty for a year & we had tricare, then when he went back to working the civilian side he was no longer active duty & a reservist. Cars broke down... more times then I can count at this point & when I first started youtube I didn't understand the tax accept of it, well tax season came around & I didn't have nearly enough saved so I'm still paying on that & thats half of what I owe. I didn't get "deep" into debt because of "Tacky Victorias secret" crap, I don't have a credit card for them for the same reason I don't have one for target.. I'd max them out the first month haha My mistake was I didn't prioritize debt, well fuck lesson learned. The reason I don't just say these things is because I just want things private, no one needs to know everything but I realize the less detail I give the more people fill in the blanks with what they think happened.
House- We rent it, as for the timeline I have no idea, Randy & I haven't had much communication, anything I ask about I get "Don't worry about it" or "I'll take care of it" I don't have it in me to pry at the moment so when I thought he was going to be out he decided to stay & thats fine by me, I'm not sure what his plan is & I can't speak for him.
Bed situation- I really don't know how to say this without having people freak out but my dad is just kind of an ass... He's the tough love type, he hates any kind of change & is always irrational in the moment. Growing up his answer was always no till he actually sat back & thought the situation though. I brought up a few suggestions & he shot them down, I don't expect him to change his mind because it is his home but I think he will come around to the idea, as of right now Hazzel gets the bed & Ive been sleeping on the couch, someone suggested putting a body pillow between us so I think I'm going to give that a chance. ultimately my dad loves me & he's the one that offered me to stay because I went to him with this situation first.
I also wanted to talk about the 8 months to a year time I gave myself. Something else I didn't want to talk about just yet is that I talked to my parents about seeing a doctor to help with my depression & anxiety, given my past with trying different anti depressants my parents want to give me time to find whats going to work best & stay on them for a few months. not because they fear I will self harm, but because they both have been in my situation, they know its not good to be alone with thoughts. My dad will not accept any money I give him but we compromised, I'll be paying the internet bill & Tv bill.
The Dann situation- All I can say is poor Dann haha he's painted in a bad light when I can promise you all he's a good guy. He meant no ill intentions & was trying to help me make light of the shitty situation I'm in, he made a few jokes but I know he didn't think it would have blew up as big as it did. I really don't think he's interested in trolling this site, When I saw someone wanted to message him, I sent him a message just to give him a heads up that someone was going to confront him about something they "saw" (we have grabbed a drink a few times with friends but we've never been to a mall together) I just asked him to respect my privacy & not answer anything personal about my life. I babysit his son once or twice a week, he isn't my "New Man" but he has been a good friend to me. He thought he was helping but it wasn't taken that way, He sees the "production" & "entertainment" side of youtube, he doesnt watch family vloggers or daily vloggers he watches people who have a whole production team.