HashtagBlessed wrote: ↑Sat Jun 27, 2020 3:56 am
I definitely think daily migraines would be debilitating and have a huge impact on quality of life. I had migraines for the first time late into my first pregnancy and it was definitely eye-opening to me in terms of how debilitating it is- mine were accompanied by nerological side-effects like difficulty speaking, short term memory loss, blurred vision, etc. I seriously thought I was having a stroke the first time it happened. I called my doctor and told my husband to come home so he could take me in. BUT once my gynecologist explained what it was and gave me some options, I calmed down. If it had continues at a high rate, or anything resembling daily, I would have gotten in with a neurologist.
What is so perplexing to me about Ellie is that she can't seem to stick to an ailment and follow through with that doctor, that diagnosis, or that treatment plan. She supposedly has hypothyroidism, but then suddenly wasn't seeing her endocrinologist or taking her medication for years, despite infertility issues and miscarriage. She was convinced she had a hormone imbalance, and even invited her "doctor" (read: chiripractor) on their podcast, and then suddenly he's gone. Sees another doctor for this hormone issue who is an actual MD who got her back on her thyroid medication? She was extremely defensive over scary weight loss and insistent that nothing was wrong, despite breaking down crying in her doctor's parking lot and not having the energy to walk up the stairs, only to go on to post before and after photos once she's able to get to a healthy weight thanks to hormone doctor #2? Then she decides her copper IUD is poisoning her and goes to a frickin ER to have it removed rather than making an appointment. Now she's been suffering from migraines for years, and is only just now seeing a nerologist and getting a diagnosis? And before that, she pays for an out of pocket MRI. I'm sure I'm missing other instances of whacky behavior and lack of follow through I don't know if it's just lack of intelligence or narcissism, but I think a combination of both causes her to doctor shop and prevents her from getting real help.
Because she is not actually looking to get well. She's looking (and Dr. shopping) for ways to be perpetually ill. She's feeding off of the attention, sympathy, and the ability to control people's emotions (make them sad for her/worry for her) by always having something "wrong". If she's exhausted her family's sympathy, she will need to find new sources of supply (move?) and I suspect she is also seeking supply from doctors, which is going to get (and probably has already become) very, very expensive. Most people have only ever heard of Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy, where a parent will seek medical attention/narcissistic supply from doctors via their child. However, straight up Munchausen Syndrome is a psychological disorder where a person constantly seeks medical attention for phantom problems (usually of a very serious type). She needs a
psych evaluation, not blood tests and MRI's. I suspect that people close to her are encouraging her to go this route (therapist/psych eval), and she's attempting to run away from this solution. She's afraid of being exposed (understandable) and losing control of her coping mechanisms. She's developed a lot of coping mechanisms, from what I can tell, that help her maintain a type of balance and equilibrium, but those are failing as she gets older. I noticed in their latest vlog about moving, she made it a point to address that she has become a "woman" and has matured. This would make someone who really feels like an 8-year-old little girl inside terrified. Can you imagine feeling like you are 8 yrs. old and yet having the responsibilities of a mother, wife, entrepreneur, etc.? She would have NO IDEA of how to handle life situations, responsibilities, and relationships from the perspective of an almost 30-year-old woman. Inside, she's not. She's still a child.
