Living On A Dime | Part Two

[IHateCilantro]

I wish she would have said something about Tawra's "illness."Tawra even mentioned in a video this past week about her $300 monthly SSD check, and how that's what she "survived" on. If they both(Jill and Tawra) were sooo sick,wouldn't they need to be together to care for each other? How can Tawra "work" and be sooo sick? How can Tawra "work" and have no income to still be getting these government checks?

See the $3 million house loan really gets me. The audacity of that. People cant pay bills and Tawra wants a $3 million house.
How is she gonna support that house? Does she not get UPKEEP and taxes? All over the US, real estate taxes are skyrocketting.
The house I grew up in was $99k in 1969, Its now worth $700,000..... The taxes 2 yrs ago were $6000..They are now $13,000.
This is happening ALL OVER.I got a letter saying my taxes were gonna go up but they didnt. Ill bet it was a Repub trying to propaganda me.

Tawra? Your starter home was in Idaho, Your Mead house is your forever home. My father and his BFF had money, when they got to be 60 and were empty nesters, they moved into a tiny condo community, with "free" landscaping and security. They no longer needed a LARGE house to clean (although they both had cleaning ppl come in occasionally)

SO, remember that link I posted on here , showing their yearly income at $1 mill? I wonder if that is true now? I cant find that link.
Theyd hafta break it up for 4 ppl after taxes...

Oh Tawra Tawra Tawra, your life could be so much better if you got therapy and became a real Christian.

At times I wish Id never watched that zaycon chicken episode.

[IHateCilantro]

BTW Heidi, if you are reading here. My mom is a narc.
Shed send cards and gifts to all these ppl, sweet as pie. BUT as soon as she was home with us shed say all kinds of nasty shit about her co workers.
Heidi? in your opinion is Tawra sick or faking it?

[Iwasneverhere_0]

They had said some months they make $40k and others nothing since they are self employed. For arguments sake, if they made $40k every month, it would be $480k a year. I seriously doubt they make this kind of money to just have barely paid off their house and drive the shit cars they do. The house tour-- was depressing, not of people earning half a million per year. And their wardrobe...it's pretty obviously not expensive.

People their age should not buy a 3 million dollar home, because Tawra doesn't even clean her current small home, how will she do maintenance on a larger home? Plus, they do not make enough money to support a home that expensive (taxes, mortgage, energy costs). She is living in LaLa land and Mike is right up there with her

[eye_roll_cringe]

Tawra messed up the toffee recipe in today's video and then said, "didn't this happen last year too?" Either your recipe sucks or you're dumb. Or both.

She told some story about the shipping delays going on with boats and harbors. I saw lots of comments asking why the books were coming on boats and they didn't address it at all.

I heard Elly in the background at one time so adult child is still living at home!!!!!! ALERT!!!! How old would she be now?

Still wondering where Emily is... I WISH HEIDI WOULD COME BACK HERE AGAIN!

[Iwasneverhere_0]

Yes, thier Chinese books made from stolen recipes and stock photos. Wave your Costco sales goodbye! Those books might make it to the Dollar Tree!

[IHateCilantro]

They had said some months they make $40k and others nothing since they are self employed. For arguments sake, if they made $40k every month, it would be $480k a year. I seriously doubt they make this kind of money to just have barely paid off their house and drive the shit cars they do. The house tour-- was depressing, not of people earning half a million per year. And their wardrobe...it's pretty obviously not expensive.

People their age should not buy a 3 million dollar home, because Tawra doesn't even clean her current small home, how will she do maintenance on a larger home? Plus, they do not make enough money to support a home that expensive (taxes, mortgage, energy costs). She is living in LaLa land and Mike is right up there with her

$40,000.00 a month is 1666 DOAD books. They must have lived at the USPS that month.

See, if they lie to us once, I feel they can lie again at anytime.
Remember, they have 2 bank accounts, personal and LOAD.
These ppl are Carnies, whats next? A 3 headed monkey and a bearded lady?
I think they say things Slight of Hand style. Like when she showed herself
shopping online at Walmart, she only showed ONE bank account, not both.

Honestly, who knows what is true and false here...

[Iwasneverhere_0]

Their latest video they are defending moving all the time. Who is scrutinizing them for moving all the time? We have not been on this site, only talking about how dumb it is for her to move NOW TO A BIGGER HOUSE.

Anyway, it's bad to move for your kids development. I honestly can't think of a parent who wouldn't know that. She has never, not once, mentioned the sake of her kids for doing anything. Always random family or financial concerns.

Reference for fact regarding moving and kids: https://www.apa.org/news/press/releases ... on%20level.

[eye_roll_cringe]

"People think it's a terrible awful thing that we moved so much."

Umm, no - we think it's indicative of something. Like how of your 9 closest neighbors you have issues with 4 (your estimation). And those people can close their doors and escape you! Imagine if Tawra had to have a real job and interact with all sorts of people.

It also shows how ridiculous it is that you say you're financial experts when your whole lives are a sequence of poor money decisions. Yes, you don't have debt but you move places with no/terrible job prospects and then act like you HAVE to drive 4 hours a day to work so everyone feel bad for you!

[IHateCilantro]

"People think it's a terrible awful thing that we moved so much."

Umm, no - we think it's indicative of something. Like how of your 9 closest neighbors you have issues with 4 (your estimation). And those people can close their doors and escape you! Imagine if Tawra had to have a real job and interact with all sorts of people.

It also shows how ridiculous it is that you say you're financial experts when your whole lives are a sequence of poor money decisions. Yes, you don't have debt but you move places with no/terrible job prospects and then act like you HAVE to drive 4 hours a day to work so everyone feel bad for you!

Its why she DOESNT want a real job! Cause it would mean shed hafta get along with ppl she FEARS.

People who live in populated places are more intelligent cause they want to mix with a large variety of people cause it stimulates creativity.
https://www.popsci.com/article/science/ ... ve-cities/
Meanwhile Tawra wants to move away from ppl who might challenge her bigoted false beliefs.

I love my neighborhood. I live in a large metropolitan area, with tons of diversity and excitement.
I LOVE seeing ppl wearing unique clothes, I love seeing all the different ethnic markets, ethnic people, I love seeing the gorgeous
mosques, temples and churches. Im always chit chatting with our large Indian population.
I hope we get some gay neighbors soon, I hope they are on my street. Cause I will befriend them.
Ive only had issues with ONE neighbor and that is my one TAWRA like neighbor.
My neighbors like me cause I am a decent neighborly person.
I look out for them and their houses since Im home all day.
If their kids go door to door for Girl Scouts/Boy Scouts Ill give em $50 and not take their candy or cookies, cause I dont eat carbs, but I will support them..
A great relationship with your neighbors is PRICELESS!
Im a single woman, We get FEET of snow. If you are good to your neighbors, they will snow blow your driveway out without asking or accepting payment. If you put good in, you get good out.

Tawra? we had a week long power outage years back. My ethnic neighbor has always been kind to me and my son. so I put him on my list to get Dry Ice for their food. I am the dry ice fairy, when our power goes out I get a giant cooler and go buy dry ice for my neighbors on my street, cause they all work. BUT if I was like YOU Tawra, firstly Id not be buying anything for anyone since If I was Tawra Id be a cold hearted bitch. EVERY MAN FOR THEMSELVES RIGHT TAWRA?!
Also, if I was Tawra, Id never buy anything for a neighbor that might have different beliefs then me, REGARDLESS of how nice they treated me over the years.

Ill bet you that all Tawras neighbors have TRIED to like her and have been nice to her over the years, but she was horrible to them.

Ill bet all her neighbors are all on NEXTDOOR or the RING App gossiping about her...

Yes, you are right Tawra is the common denominator


PS how much do you wanna bet that after she reads this, she joins the nextdoor app!

Look, lol

[IHateCilantro]

This is Tawras kind of meeting

[IHateCilantro]

[IHateCilantro]

Tawra, please join NextDoor. Its an app on your phone or you can use it in your browser.. I wanna see if your posts get reported to BestOfNextDoor twitter acct.

If any of you wanna laugh just read the BestOfNextDoor twitter. OMG, such fun.

Once on my local ND app, ppl complained about a dead rusted riding mower dropped in their street.
Naturally I went to Dollar Tree, bought fake flowers and a cardboard gold cross from the party section and laid them on the dead mower
to pay tribute to the dead mower. Well, obviously the next day ppl on ND reported the flowers and cross as suspicious.
One person said it was Voodoo and "What's next? Chicken Sacrifices?"
I laughed so hard.

[Iwasneverhere_0]

Nextdoor app is a trip. I see a lot of "is this your cat?" And loose dog posts. Sometimes things light up for new years due to fireworks. I would love to see posts about her on nextdoor! You know she has some. I bet they even have some name for her like Dog Bark Karen.

[GetitTogether]

So I wasn't going to come back. I felt like I said my piece and was going to.move on but I saw a few titles of her videos and it makes me realize how much I hate her. I have never hated anyone so much as Tawra.

She is obsessed with this site and checks it every day. Within hours of posting last I was blocked across everything. Which is completely fine because I had never looked back. Also please don't worry about me. I have zero pain , loss, or hurt. I never liked her to begin with. Even when she came to my house. My husband wanted to know how I always find crazies. I worked for her because it was easy money and it is interesting to me to understand people. I truly, truly understand who Tawra is. She has not a shred of good in her. I have never met anyone so morally bankrupt. I have literally hundreds of screenshots to prove it. But I probably won't take the time to post anything now. I have 4 kids all at home doing DL.

Do I have the gingerbread recipe? No. I never asked for it. Nothing good comes from that families kitchen.

Is Tawra faking? Let me just say this. In the over 2 years I worked for her I never once knew her to be sick or sleeping. Does Tawra think she is sick? Yes. Does Mike? Yes. We can make ourselves sick just by unconsciously wishing it. It is for sympathy and attention. She needs so much attention. Almost like a toddler. She needs her ego stroked constantly. I have never seen anything like it in an adult.

Janelle's sister has been in the hospital for over a month in South Dakota with covid. She is 54 years old. She was on a ventilator for over a week and almost died. Tawra's experiences are the only legitimate experiences. Classic narcissist. Also Tawra was convinced she already had covid last March. BJ had its supposedly and she was sure she had. But do not believe anything she says, ever.

But I also understand that I am not a good person. I worked for her for 2 years pretending to like her. I used her for an easy job. That also says something about me. I am no saint. I can at least see my flaws. The absolute arrogance of Tawra is frightening. So ask me anything. I don't come in much but I will try to check back.

Also she has pissed off the canners and now probably the Preppers. I thought for sure the Preppers were giving her the death threats. She should be careful.

[GetitTogether]

Something that did deeply hurt me was when she closed the group. I didn't talk to her for 2 days. I felt a connection to a lot of people in that group. I am still in touch with a few people, especially Kellie from Australia.

She has no regards for my feelings on it was was annoyed that I acted hurt. I monitored that group 7 days a week for over a year. I spent in average 5-8 hours a day in that group. Yes I was getting paid but I liked the people and I was strict about keeping it nice. The only person that wasn't nice was Tawra. I would have kicked her out so many times if she was just a member. She closed it with zero warning. Just gone. That was when I really started to not care what happened to her.

[IHateCilantro]

Nextdoor app is a trip. I see a lot of "is this your cat?" And loose dog posts. Sometimes things light up for new years due to fireworks. I would love to see posts about her on nextdoor! You know she has some. I bet they even have some name for her like Dog Bark Karen.

I sat here one night reading BestOfNextDoor posts and I laughed for 3 hours straight!
Comedy Gold! I cant believe any comedians havent made a whole 5 min stand up routine about it.


^^^ROFL


^^This is weird tho'

[IHateCilantro]

Heidi? Look! DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF!
As women, we are taught from a baby to not trust our inner voice and "be nice".
The church even hobbles women and makes them feel that they need to be submissive and nice to all and not stick up for yourself.
All of us have trusted ppl and let them use us as doormats!
Me included.
Dont be upset with yourself, the fact that you are upset is good tho'.. it means you are a caring person.

Heidi, I was 35 when I started to unravel what my narc mom did to me.
THIRTY FIVE!
I hope BJ and Elly RUN. Run as far as they can.
They need to do everything they can to get a degree or education and not look back. Ill bet thats why Emily ran.

I said early on on this thread (part1) that when I first came on the internet 25 years ago, that I came on, MIMICKING my Moms hate of women.
I said such dumb ignorant shit to people and I got heavily attacked for it. And Im happy they attacked me, cause I stepped back and did introspection and said, "Yeah, they are right!"
And now Im a huge feminist.

I hope none of these kids have lasting damage and I hope they find a LOVING family to marry into.

Tawra? UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is not threatening your kids that if they have premarital sex and get HPV that you are happy that God gave them cancer. Its EVIL.

Mike is not blameless either. He is an enabler and he quit a good job to be a co-conspirator.
Mike? when you are at the Library get a Tele-Shrink and talk to them. Make sure to clear the cache and history before going home tho'.

[fun2savemoney]

So I wasn't going to come back. I felt like I said my piece and was going to.move on but I saw a few titles of her videos and it makes me realize how much I hate her. I have never hated anyone so much as Tawra.

She is obsessed with this site and checks it every day. Within hours of posting last I was blocked across everything. Which is completely fine because I had never looked back. Also please don't worry about me. I have zero pain , loss, or hurt. I never liked her to begin with. Even when she came to my house. My husband wanted to know how I always find crazies. I worked for her because it was easy money and it is interesting to me to understand people. I truly, truly understand who Tawra is. She has not a shred of good in her. I have never met anyone so morally bankrupt. I have literally hundreds of screenshots to prove it. But I probably won't take the time to post anything now. I have 4 kids all at home doing DL.

Do I have the gingerbread recipe? No. I never asked for it. Nothing good comes from that families kitchen.

Is Tawra faking? Let me just say this. In the over 2 years I worked for her I never once knew her to be sick or sleeping. Does Tawra think she is sick? Yes. Does Mike? Yes. We can make ourselves sick just by unconsciously wishing it. It is for sympathy and attention. She needs so much attention. Almost like a toddler. She needs her ego stroked constantly. I have never seen anything like it in an adult.

Janelle's sister has been in the hospital for over a month in South Dakota with covid. She is 54 years old. She was on a ventilator for over a week and almost died. Tawra's experiences are the only legitimate experiences. Classic narcissist. Also Tawra was convinced she already had covid last March. BJ had its supposedly and she was sure she had. But do not believe anything she says, ever.

But I also understand that I am not a good person. I worked for her for 2 years pretending to like her. I used her for an easy job. That also says something about me. I am no saint. I can at least see my flaws. The absolute arrogance of Tawra is frightening. So ask me anything. I don't come in much but I will try to check back.

Also she has pissed off the canners and now probably the Preppers. I thought for sure the Preppers were giving her the death threats. She should be careful.

Thank you for your experience on here! I was a part of the grocery group and was upset when it was suddenly closed as I was attached to the group at a time when I was kinda lonely as my kids had all just gone back to public school full-time after we had home schooled for 5 years. I thought you did a wonderful job as the admin and moderator for the grocery group and wished it was your group and not affiliated with Tawra.

I used to watch LOAD videos because even though Tawra annoyed me at times, much of it felt kinda familiar and in a twisted way comforting to me. I too grew up with a single mom and we were involved in a church that preached almost verbatim a form of Christianity that I hear coming from Tawra and Mike. I left the cultish church when I was 18 and had a choice and the boy, did the stuff hit the fan with the church and my family. It has been a lifelong struggle for me to reconcile my own spirituality with how I was raised and the "Biblical truth" I had drilled into me. It is very disconcerting as I don't know what to believe or what to trust.

GetitTogether, I don't know your spiritual or religious beliefs, but how do you reconcile the "gospel" they preach and the Bibles they give away with Tawra's moral bankruptcy? It is so confusing to me as I feel like everything I was taught was kind of a lie and I'm still reeling and trying to figure things out. It is eerie to me how what comes out of their mouths about Christianity so close to what I was taught as a teen in that church.

Thankfully I have made a ton of progress- especially in the last few months and have no desire to watch anything from LOAD ever again. I read on here to try to process and understand and hopefully move past my negative experiences so I thank you, GetitTogether for sharing your insight and experiences.

So sorry to hear about Janelle's sister and I hope she gets better soon!

[IHateCilantro]

Fun2SaveMoney?
I think Tawra isnt a Christian, shes a narcissist. Narcs use religion to bolster their inner biases.
Tawras religion is TAWRA.

https://pro.psychcentral.com/exhausted- ... e-tactics/

Fun2Savemoney? Someone once told Ricky Gervais, " I love your Christ, but dont like your Christians"
President Jefferson published a Christian Bible that was all of Jesus' words and acts from the NT, w/o the miracles.

And its one of the KINDEST most loving books.
All one needs to do to be a Christian is LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR.

Obviously, If we are loving our neighbors, we will not be murdering them, Bullying them, Calling them names, burning their churches, lying to them, snuffing their lives out like George Floyd, committing adultery against them, or coveting what belongs to them.
They also wouldnt be WISHING their Gay dad death, or hoarding Walmart meat.

[GetitTogether]

So I wasn't going to come back. I felt like I said my piece and was going to.move on but I saw a few titles of her videos and it makes me realize how much I hate her. I have never hated anyone so much as Tawra.

She is obsessed with this site and checks it every day. Within hours of posting last I was blocked across everything. Which is completely fine because I had never looked back. Also please don't worry about me. I have zero pain , loss, or hurt. I never liked her to begin with. Even when she came to my house. My husband wanted to know how I always find crazies. I worked for her because it was easy money and it is interesting to me to understand people. I truly, truly understand who Tawra is. She has not a shred of good in her. I have never met anyone so morally bankrupt. I have literally hundreds of screenshots to prove it. But I probably won't take the time to post anything now. I have 4 kids all at home doing DL.

Do I have the gingerbread recipe? No. I never asked for it. Nothing good comes from that families kitchen.

Is Tawra faking? Let me just say this. In the over 2 years I worked for her I never once knew her to be sick or sleeping. Does Tawra think she is sick? Yes. Does Mike? Yes. We can make ourselves sick just by unconsciously wishing it. It is for sympathy and attention. She needs so much attention. Almost like a toddler. She needs her ego stroked constantly. I have never seen anything like it in an adult.

Janelle's sister has been in the hospital for over a month in South Dakota with covid. She is 54 years old. She was on a ventilator for over a week and almost died. Tawra's experiences are the only legitimate experiences. Classic narcissist. Also Tawra was convinced she already had covid last March. BJ had its supposedly and she was sure she had. But do not believe anything she says, ever.

But I also understand that I am not a good person. I worked for her for 2 years pretending to like her. I used her for an easy job. That also says something about me. I am no saint. I can at least see my flaws. The absolute arrogance of Tawra is frightening. So ask me anything. I don't come in much but I will try to check back.

Also she has pissed off the canners and now probably the Preppers. I thought for sure the Preppers were giving her the death threats. She should be careful.

Thank you for your experience on here! I was a part of the grocery group and was upset when it was suddenly closed as I was attached to the group at a time when I was kinda lonely as my kids had all just gone back to public school full-time after we had home schooled for 5 years. I thought you did a wonderful job as the admin and moderator for the grocery group and wished it was your group and not affiliated with Tawra.

I used to watch LOAD videos because even though Tawra annoyed me at times, much of it felt kinda familiar and in a twisted way comforting to me. I too grew up with a single mom and we were involved in a church that preached almost verbatim a form of Christianity that I hear coming from Tawra and Mike. I left the cultish church when I was 18 and had a choice and the boy, did the stuff hit the fan with the church and my family. It has been a lifelong struggle for me to reconcile my own spirituality with how I was raised and the "Biblical truth" I had drilled into me. It is very disconcerting as I don't know what to believe or what to trust.

GetitTogether, I don't know your spiritual or religious beliefs, but how do you reconcile the "gospel" they preach and the Bibles they give away with Tawra's moral bankruptcy? It is so confusing to me as I feel like everything I was taught was kind of a lie and I'm still reeling and trying to figure things out. It is eerie to me how what comes out of their mouths about Christianity so close to what I was taught as a teen in that church.

Thankfully I have made a ton of progress- especially in the last few months and have no desire to watch anything from LOAD ever again. I read on here to try to process and understand and hopefully move past my negative experiences so I thank you, GetitTogether for sharing your insight and experiences.

So sorry to hear about Janelle's sister and I hope she gets better soon!

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